aiyo... desperation... confuse!!!

Oh God!!! Honestly, what i feel now is desperation to have someone that can by my side, what i mean is a boyfriend. is it right or wrong? What my believe is, it's a very wrong thing to have those desperation! It's like a very evil thought that i have. Another conversation in my mind is to tell myself to delete the thought immediately. ARRR~! It's like, when i feel "he" is the right person, "he'll" just leave me, as those i didn't feel "he" is the right one will just come... Is this the fact? Of course i know, there will be a right time to get the right person, but then i just can't wait it patiently! everytime i feel lonely, not because i don't have friends, but it's because i don't have a person that can by my side long lasting... wow! today i'm so emotional! DELETE! DELETE! DELETE~!!!!

I'm purple?

This is a picture I took nearby my house. I was arranging the photos and yet, I like this picture very much. I feel that it's like myself... For me, purple is a mysterious colour just like what I have with my image. As my close friends will know, I like green, not because of the colour, but the meaning really suites me. Yes, green means envy, I do always envy, I'll always ask and think... Why I will be like this? Is it wrong to envy on somebody? Then, every time I have this kind of feelings, I will just stop it, as my belief, this is wrong, I can't be like this, no body will like me if I show up. But then, now I know, it's okay to envy, it's normal. People won't change, I won't change as well. ^^

my cutie students~

she's one of my favourite student, yee jun. a cute girl with bright eyes but petite. she's always understand why i thought them that way. everytime i saw here drawing, i will feel very successful. they had their result after i thought them for about 9 month. Now i had to resind. i was thinking of this long time ago, but everytime i saw them, i will just delete the idea from my mind. after the advance, i know that, i can't just think of others, i should responsible to myself too. i've been thinking too much for others... i should a chance for my ownself. when i told them i'm not going to teach them any more, they'll like asking questions, i'll feel the pain and want to pull back again, but i know, i can't pull back any more, for my future, for my responsibility and for my own idea. but i also feel happy when they ask me to stay, that's the prove that they received my love, they will remember me. happy~ haha!

yee jun~ cute right? if i'm not mistaken, she's just standard 1 or 2.

aiyo~ this two always make me headache. stuborn and like to give excuse... but then they are cute sometimes. haha! qi yang and zi xuan, they are siblings, zi xuan did her responsible very much as an elder sister. good~

yew de, sharro and brian. yew de is my "boss" son, an active boy. sharro, a hyperactive girl that always has the energy. one of my favourite student too~! brian is her youger brother, i didn't teach him much, but then as i know, he is a troublesome student too. haha...

i'll miss them so much~ aikz...