~mika's heart~

damn hacker!

2009-06-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

omg~!! last night being hacked, not only msn, but also my facebook and friendster!

i've waste my whole day creating a new account and adding people again! argh!!!

just post up here to let u guys know that all those account being hacked, so, don't believe anything the hacker post in my facebook from now on.

for msn, i've arranged it. save... argh~!! the second time being hacked!!!

回忆

2009-06-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

无意间，找到中学时的照片，那里有好多回忆哦。

友情，爱情……全都聚集在里边。好怀念哦！

想想，我还真的变了不少。

无论是样子，打扮，思想，都有所改变。

我变得稍微成熟了。

顿时，还挺怀念那天真无暇的我。

每天都开心的，充实的度过。

想呀想的……好想找我的老同学们聚一聚嘢……

哈哈！会有机会的，缘分嘛~

心血来潮，也顺便放上了我以前的照片分享下。哈哈！

嘻嘻~那时是运动场上的“巡查员”，很中性化。我那时特爱这种打扮，超舒服的。哈哈！

我的学记朋友，也叫ning xin，就我的xin是欣赏的“欣”，她的xin是温馨的“馨”。在学记的活动里，常会以为被叫，结果总是会摆乌龙。哈哈！所以啊，在活动有我们两人出现的地方，一定要连名带姓的叫，不然可能会被我们揍呢！

初中三，我校铜管乐乐队的第一个演奏会。这张照片里的都是敲击的，也就是“percussionist”。看我那乡村妹的样子，哈哈！

这是初中三的朋友。那时就开始会去电影院看戏、打保龄球……还挺开心的。这张照片是在KL Central的地铁站拍的，没错是正准备回家了。

诶？哈哈！我初中三的生日！虽然是说生日会，我还要求他们出席呢！哈哈！也没那么严重啦，就，很开心的一个生日会，虽然是提早庆祝了。（我的生日通常都会在新年期间，很少会在普通的日子，所以，很少有机会和朋友一起庆祝的。）没关系，最重要的，是我的好朋友和干哥哥都出席。

哈哈！jackson和kar wai，也是skuad sukan的一份子。那天正是我们的退休典礼。没错的话，是在citytel吧。kar wai那时搭了我的肩膀，还真的让我有些惊讶。哈哈！毕竟他是男生嘛……

骏义，我得干哥哥和中学时的老友。

哦！我学记生涯中，最痛苦但也开心的一个生活营。那时我的脚是肿得像猪脚那样，痒的我还哭了几回呢！还蛮失败的一次，那时我还是营长呢。啊~

20届办给21届的万挠下乡营。还挺轻松的一次。哈哈！

铜管乐的第二次演奏会结束后和教练合照。但现在，因为发生了点事，和教练搞得不愉快，都没回去了。好可惜哦……

prom night! raymond，他呀，去了澳洲留学，还挺想念他的。

chiam,我，雪莉还有simon。

哈哈！这张也真给我很多的回忆。站在我旁边的，正是我的前男友。我还真的很内疚呢……当时的稚气毁了个好男人……

中间那位，我的老友，vivian。初中三时有不错的成绩，都因为她，激励我，鼓励我。不然啊，我想，我真的会一败涂地了。因为初中二时，我都不交功课，不专心上课，到了初中三才稍微勤劳些。哈哈！也是那时开始，我认识了所谓的名牌。哈哈！

喘不过气了？没啦~

2009-06-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

现在的生活是挺充实的，但就是少了一些东西。

我不知道是些什么，就……那一丁点东西竟可以让我喘不过起来……

刚刚还了解到，有心机是成熟的开始。不能下定论，就只是个了解。

人生啊~是有那么多的色彩啊！我的人生再进来的日子里更添了不同的色彩。

开心的，难过的，埋怨的，质疑的……

还不错啦~

就短短的感言，让我再次的成长。

慢慢的想……

2009-06-15T02:29:00.000+08:00

最近都在看动漫，不然就是和朋友聊天。放松……尽量的放松……不是说我懒，那只是我放松的一些方法。

前天心血来潮的，去找了找一套宫崎骏的作品，“梦幻街少女”。那是我理想的故事情节，或许有点天真，那正是我，想天真的过一生，但没能做到。我会埋怨

周围不允许我那么的天真，但还是会想，我能做些什么来保持自己的那份天真。我会常幻想自己是戏里的女主角，享受着甜蜜。悲痛与那无比的喜悦。我知道，我原本就是女主角，我的剧本里的女主角，但就是忽略了这点。想必不只是我，很多人也是。还想张智成唱的那首“快乐”，“你是你自己的作者，何必把剧本写那么难演的剧本？”

说回“梦幻街少女”，女主角为了得到自己的肯定，给了自己个测验，考验自己的爱情与未来。想一想自己，口说有梦想，但也没想过要怎么考验自己，也从没肯定过自己……我得重新出发，不然我会对不起我自己，更别说家人了……

朋友的一些故事也似乎点醒了我，父母与家人是那么的重要。我怎么都没去在意这个话题啊？我和他们在一起的时间，真的都在倒数也……朋友也是，一过了就不会回来了……

还能说些什么呢？呼吁大家一起开始珍惜身边的事物与人吧！时光不回头啊！

crazy me... hahaha!!!

2009-06-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

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haha... that's something crazy on me, just want to share this, coz i found that very funny! haha! i tried to continue the photos like flash, haha... the expression is.. hahahahaha! damn crazy!

oh yeah~ new "babies"!

2009-05-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

tadaa~ This is the title of mine! "Mi Ka"

I draw on a canvas with arclic. At first just thought to test, but then come out with more than one. Haha!!

This is the 1st one i draw, with the title "Relax".

No doubt, "Ribbon".

"Ball"

"Think"

This is colour that left out, i just figure out a way to finish up the colours. Proudly present, the "Tree"! Haha!!

oo~ "Cup"!

Tadaa~ This is the finished "babies"!

A bigger family now. I will cotinue to do more, i want to develope a big Big BIG~ Family!! haha!!

aiyaya.. testing with the "treasure"!

2009-05-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

Tadaa~ This is a hand phone cover made by Mika-sang~ ha ha!!

It's still hot~ ha ha! I did that after i found a big pack of cloth at my maid's room. I felt that I've found a treasure! ha ha! anyway, those cloth are those days when my grandma used to sew cloths or pyjamas. Its all mine now! hahahaha!!!! Later will arrange the cloth and take a nice photo to show off. Ha ha!

*still very excited about that.. ha ha!

Irene's wedding dinner + LP121 gathering

2009-05-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

Ya... This is sam and irene, while irene is my Basic training, Advance Course and Leadership Program(LP)'s friend. Within 1 year, she had make a lot of changes. When i look at her wedding photo, i know how sweet they are, that's the fate to let them together. Looking at them, i will think of myself, when will be my turn? Haha! a bit to early to plan all this. But i did think about this, maybe when i'm 25 years old, not too old. Haha...

This is the door gift, a thank you card with their wedding photos. I like the vector design very much!! Look simple and so elegance! Haha...

This is the decoration of the dinner. So beatiful and even make me stare at it for a few second. Haha! So romantic.

While this is the entrance, i still can imagine, how sweet and memorable when the couple walk on the red carpet with the bless of the friends and families. Me myself is one of those to spread the colourful flower petals in the air... I enjoy the scenario. Hehe...

Our main character, Irene! She's so beautiful... Instead she looks like a Hong Kong movie star, 蔡少芬. Haha! Can feel the stress and tireness on he but still want to make sure everything is in her plan. A strong woman.

Tada~ The one who standing is Wendy, my "personal" beauty consultant. Haha! She done a good job last night. I like the make up she put on me. Perfect! Haha! Thanks my dear Wendy. The one who sitting is, Diane, a prety lady with a strong outlook. Powerful enough for me to salute her. Haha!!

See? Nice? Haha, anyway, i must thanks to my bestie, Hwi Yee for the dress. I did make some changes. Haha! Oh ya, and also the necklace, i like it very much! Thanks, thanks, thanks!

Chiam, a buddy that purposely come from penang to KL, just to attend Irene's wedding dinner. How great he is. He is a gentleman, although sometimes a bit quite, but till play, he is crazy enough. Haha! The flower i borrowed from Irene. Hehe, imagine i'm the bride. Haha!

I like this photo, i like the feel... ^^

Ken gor, a handsome guy with an active characteristic. The whole night keep on say i fat already, nevermind, i confess that. Haha!

See how high they are. Haha!!

Happy family~~ Haha!!

* more photo's will upload to my facebook soon. I also can't wait to get those photos~! haha!!!

oo~ relax~ 。多重人格

2009-05-13T02:44:00.001+08:00

Wow! I've been so long didn't relax like this! swimming, do house work, sleep more than 3 hours for "nap"... Wow... Feel so cool. but in the other hand, I'm terrified, stress with the free lance, the redo assign, the coming assign... More and more... Although it's a bit tough, but i know i can overcome it. Who am i? I'm Mika!! ha ha!

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对呀，今天可是超轻松的。没去顾虑任何东西，就是放松自己。好悠闲的一天。除了悠闲，还想了一些个人的性格与人格，我是说我自己。我发现自己有很多人格，可以中性的，可以很女人，可以很小孩子气，更可以潇洒的面对事情。好友也那么认为。对，我会对一些个人想法很固执，很执着。就是好友的一些正面批评让我看清自己，学会冷静并聆听。有时静下来，反而会领悟更多，学更多。所以啊，我也慢慢的放下固执，学会接受。过去的就让它过去，执着并没带给我什么好处。扔了吧！

mother's day 。母亲节

2009-05-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

This year we celebrate differently and special enough. We had a mini buffet last night at my house and all my aunt and uncle came to celebrate together. So, total up, there are 6 mommys celebrate together. Other than having buffet, they sing k too, as my aunt bought a karaoke set as mother's day gift to my grandma. It was so warm, i mean the scenario, i like that kind of feel.

em mm~yummy~

This is the handmade baggy i made for my mom. But i tried to use oil paint, it haven't dry yet, so i just get to show her but cant use yet.. so sorry about that. Every year i will make cards, but this year tried something different. Feel the fullness. ha ha!

While this is for my grandma~! This is what i taught the kids in the centre as well, just the material just left some, so... the face is red. ha ha! As long as she like it.

好想打人

2009-05-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

昨晚才说碰见他我不知会有什么举动

今早就得知将会遇见他

不明？

因为老师召集了一些学生要谈某些公事

我是当他透明的不然我怕我会忍不住盖他

完全不想和他说话不是完全不想见到他

没关系过了那会议又遇见了他

望都没望他一眼就走了

我忍想一想盖他也不能挽回什么

算了

我有那么好骗吗？

2009-05-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

无意间得知一些劲爆的吓人的消息

原以为还以为他还是个好人

为什么为什么会是这样的答案这样的消息

我有种冲动想托好友替我盖他两巴掌

眼泪还是忍不住的流了下来

我真的不知怎么办不知怎么掩盖这难受的心情

在想碰见他我会怎么办盖他吗？

还是当面问个清楚完全迷失

如果不是你的那一句话不是你的关怀不是你所做的一切

我想我不会如此的难受

什么可能我喜欢你妈的！！

逼我骂粗口而已！

美女都会喜欢你？！！屁！

不知丑！

嘻嘻

骂完了发泄了没那么气了

我说的是现在日后碰见他我不知我会有什么举动

累。无奈。想哭

2009-04-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

不知是我心情不好还是老师心情不好

一整天没什么笑有点不正常

总达不到他的要求

气自己不够积极更气自己没有灵感

好不容易完成了一份另一份却又卡着了

好无奈好想哭却又告诉自己不能哭

是自己的错哭了也没用无济于事

收起了继续想呀想

时而闭上眼睛时而敲敲脑袋时而到处眺望

是画了些东西没品质的东西老师也说我越画越傻了

我也这么认为没意思了

坦白的告诉老师我尽力了

他回我 “尽你的能力”

那一句就那么一句让我松了半口气

想必只是想安慰我敷衍我

又回到了原点

咳…… 不积极怎样胜出？怎样出头？

反省啊米卡！！！

误会了吗？

2009-04-22T21:43:00.000+08:00

当获知他开始了一段新恋情不知怎么反应

吓着了心里有一些无法形容的感觉

有被骗的感觉

这一切也未必太快了吧

我还傻傻的等傻傻的以为

以为将来可以开始一段新恋情

他令我放下了对前男友的思念

他令我有一丝的希望

他令我默默的计划未来

怎知这是一段不是时候的相遇

向“老爸”探一探他的消息

还是忍不住想哭但不想让好友看见

只好往里吞

好友尽量的安慰我我只想说

我心里真的感觉疼

又一次的经验让我看清了世界

马六甲之旅~

2009-03-28T11:55:00.000+08:00

这是我第三次光临马六甲了，可不是为了旅游，是为了拍戏！哈哈！不是什么专业的，就因个人兴趣，把它搞的有气派点而已。但是因一些缘故，拍摄暂停了。没关系，正因为那样也换来了两天的马六甲游。但是正生病的我也不好受，好多好吃的食物都无法送入我的五脏庙。可惜，我一定会再去的！那时就一定吃个痛快！哈哈哈！

这就是第一天的第二场景啦！

大家正等着午饭。

那里可是超热的！

正发烧的我只好躲在车里睡。

我的车变成了服装收纳处。站在门口的是秀娟，服装组组长。另一位长发美女是vivian，语言指导。在讨论些什么呢？我也忘了。

“李问”，电影的男主角。原名是明刚。我呢则穿着工人服，也就是kelefe。

这是第三天的第一场景，在育民中学的礼堂。地上铺了空手道用的地毯，背景有两面日本国旗。这个场景是说柳师傅因表演失败被枪杀的。有像道场吗?

我们漂亮的adeline，化妆师正为“李问”先生上妆。乍看之下还有点像阮经天呢！可惜他不是！哈哈哈！

我的老爸就是演“柳师傅”啦！但可惜一出场就被枪杀了。哈哈！

副导演—eric 和导演—阿翔。阿翔扮演日军，还挺像的，让人有种恐惧感。=.=

这里是Jetty，回头一看，这走廊竟是那么的长！

这里的风景是多么的美啊！一大片的海，宽阔的天空，好舒服哦~

唱完K了，一出来就有如此美的风景，真的越来越喜欢马六甲了！

诶？那会是谁呢？

来到海边总喜欢拍脚，但这次多了一双。哈哈！

嘻嘻~自拍爽下。

美吗？下次再一起去！

哇~真的不舍的回呢！

这种旧式的双层巴士吉隆坡绝不可能看见，经典吧！

旧旧的灯笼，旧旧的海报，旧旧的画……哇，果然是古城，经典极了！！

老爸和老妈~sam & wan ling。老爸帅，老妈美！生的孩子……怎么是我这种样啊~ ><

这次无论在经验，人际，或精神上都有增进。累，但开心最重要！

我还有好多的照片在其他人那里，等我讨回了，再贴上来和你们分享。

重点是，有我第一次穿旗袍的样子呢！

哈哈！期待吗？我可是超期待的！哈哈哈！

十句让人刻苦铭心的话

2009-03-28T11:46:00.000+08:00

第一句
如果我们之间有1000步的距离你只要跨出第1步
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

第二句
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
才是真正爱你的人

第三句
付出真心才会得到真心却也可能伤得彻底
保持距离就能保护自己却也注定永远寂寞

第四句
有时候不是对方不在乎你
而是你把对方看得太重

第五句
朋友就是把你看透了还能喜欢你的人

第六句
就算是believe 中间也藏了一个lie

第七句
真正的好朋友并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起就算不说话也不会感到尴尬

第八句
没有一百分的另一半
只有五十分的两个人

第九句
为你的难过而快乐的是敌人
为你的快乐而快乐的是朋友
为你的难过而难过的
就是那些该放进心里的人

第十句
冷漠有时候并不是无情
只是一种避免被伤害的工具

这十句话很有深度，很有意思。认真去思考，你会得到意想不到的收获。请不要吝啬，跟你身边的好友分享。大家友谊万岁！

怪怪的梦

2009-03-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

高大身子黑黑的皮肤

应该是运动健将

也是一位蛋糕师傅

模模糊糊的记住了他的特点

他会是我的精神寄托吗？

完全没头绪就只知道

那会是一个不能马上公开的恋情

不是说现在那只是对梦的推断

记得梦里好像是在为两个男人做选择

一个就是刚才说的另一个嘛

不太记得只知道他好像是有钱的太子

梦真的无法猜透它的含义

是真实还是幻想不能说出个明白来

感觉得到也触摸得到

那种感觉真的不知怎么解释

有时真希望就这样睡下去

每次都会在紧要关头醒过来很不是滋味

咳~ 就这样可说是梦如人生人生如梦

无从解释！啊！！！！

我还活着。life with quality

2009-03-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

无奈怀疑多疑烦啊！

无法释怀那烦人的感觉

时而妒忌时而爱慕时而愤怒

总而言之

烦啊！

但以另一方面想想

我有感觉

证明我还活着证明我还正常

这就是人生反复无常的人生

所以只好珍惜眼前的一切

过去的是回忆

没能再挽回

没能再后悔

只因不会有任何改变

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these days have a lot of things to consider. i know how to console others, but actually don't even have the gutts to face my own problem. read the diaries of mine, feel so stupid and childish. anyway, that's the way to show my growth, that's the way to gain experience. i don't know how to express my feelings well, and yet, sometimes do hurt others. i confess for that. anyway, i'c chaning, not in a big range, but a bit by a bit. slowly, i may turn into a buterfly, or even a bigger one-swan. anyway, i personally think that enjoy life with no doubt is bull shit, crap. i think enjoy life with quality will be more suitable.

米卡心里的回应

2009-03-13T20:05:00.000+08:00

昨晚看见他人遇见命中注定

心里是喜是忧

喜朋友找到爱的人成了被爱的人
忧自己孤身一只还没找到命中注定

孤单的感觉直涌而上我好想哭

不能哭米卡告诉眼睛水不能放

命中注定还没到耐心等

朋友问及会找怎样的对象

米卡说有能力跑得更远的年长点的

最重要的还是爱米卡米卡也爱他的

样子不重要气质人格好就可以了

突然好想念一个人不知怎么发泄

不好意思在别人面前写部落格

只好躲在角落发了封短讯

短讯里说 “好想念某人啊！”

听着朋友诉说感情问题

自己在反省又提醒提醒又反省

米卡的身上不容有这样的事发生

但是未来的事无人能测

只有做好现在心向未来

想着想着睡着了

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小胖老师无奈的给了段辅导
围绕着他的有在听吗？
有还得了些启发激励
想说怎样才能像他一样
想说何时才能像他一样
心里清楚只差一点点的努力一点点的热情

问了问米卡当初的热情去了哪儿
米卡回应说 “还在！”
还积了尘灰扫了扫还烫的
借口不能当饭吃懒惰更是坏了事
如何走下去在于自己在于耐力在于愿意
还想怎样才能把那热情拉回来
怎知它早已慢慢的漂回来速度还加快了

今天 LEON教会了我依赖没成果
凡事靠自己绝无后悔极

眼皮落下有点累可没成果
怎么办米卡怎么办？
只好睡一会儿再继续努力

放开。放不开。不想放开。不知道

2009-03-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

今天不知怎么的经过表叔家
想起了那时他和我到表叔家一起去打篮球
眼泪也不知觉的模糊了我的视线
那是为了我参加班级赛而做的迷你练习
还记得耐心的他教我
如何投球如何带球如何传球
那时的我开心得不得了
有人关心我有人在旁辅助我更清楚的记得
有人爱着我
那种幸福现已没了还是说还没到呢？
今天太多事勾起对他的回忆
感叹当年的无知
那是一种回忆再也挽不回的回忆
英国羽球公开赛看着林丹李宗伟
想起了一起看球赛的日子
想起互相通简讯讨论赛情的日子
好想大哭不能哭没必要哭
反问自己还放不开吗？还内疚吗？
不知道还是不想知道
我清楚的听见了自己的心声
好想做回朋友他会给这么一个机会吗？
我现在才知道我一点也不了解他
还真羡慕好友还能和他联络和他见面
“作为朋友一封祝贺生日的信息是应该的”
这句话让我看到了一线希望也害怕再次失望
想找好友出来让我发泄发泄
没能得到回复只好借球赛分散注意力
怎知更不好受想起了更多往事
想必他也经过如此难熬的日子吧
真的放不开还是不想放开只有你我知道……

wow! a very belated birthday present!

2009-03-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

tadaa~ this is from my god bro, Juni!! haha! love it so much! thank you! although it's "a bit" late, but still a promise that you finally did it! haha! a "piggy bank", usefull thing! i will keep money with this! haha... so excited!

Aloha~ proudly present~~ my "piggy bank"! haha!

this picture had been edit with photoshop, used one of the method that been taught by KFC on thursday. the paper under piggy is the wrapping paper of the present while the box... i don't think i don't need to explain much about that, smart people like you will know, haha!

anyway, really is the happiest thing that finally, a present that i've been waiting for 3 years... haha!

A half day trip to Hiap Moh Paper Co.

2009-03-04T21:25:00.001+08:00

Almost the whole DGD 081 is here, just got two of them, Jason and ABC, don't know why they didn't join us. Before going to the paper factory, we went to Taman Cornought to have lunch. A restaurant that is quite special that they used refrigerator as book shelf, metal container that was cut into half with a piece of glass on it as a dining table, old washing machine as the sits... Suite us as s bunch of designer to dine. Haha!! We seldom come out together, mostly is at college's library or cafe... Don't ask me why, ask our assignments. Haha! Anyway, it's a joyful lunch with laughters, i think the whole restaurant is full of our voice... Huhu... Pai seh, disturbed others customers...

My bestie Rachel~ Our topic will none stop once we sit together... Even sometimes when the class is going on. That's why my name is always mentioned by my lecturer... But then sometimes it's because i was sleepy. Haha!

The four pretties in DGD 081~ From the right, Rachel, Nicole, Chloe and of course me! Haha! For your information, we always call Nicole "大姐", means big sister in english. I don;t know since when we call her like that, it had been our habbit now~ She's very pretty and as what Rachel describe, she has a symmetry face!

Shir Li, Teow and Elyne~

Tadaaa~ Our class's Monitor, Wee King (the middle guy)! Thanks to him for bringing us out for this trip! Although sometimes his a bit stuborn, but still a responsible monitor! Huhu...

I really, absolutely sure that our friendship will grow stronger! So, i wonder, when will be the next outing? Coming holiday? Haha... Got to plan further... ^^

Shanfun Exphibition!!!

2009-02-28T12:58:00.000+08:00

The t-shirts are damn cool! Especially the packaging! It's a tin that you must use tin opener only can open and get the t-shirt out of it. Just sell at RM28! Me myself will buy both design. just its so cool! If I'm not mistaken, it got a limitation. If you want, just leave a message here or go to their exhibition at Central Market during 5th-17th March 09!

For your information, these clips and accessories will only sell at their exhibition, so just go and have a look, that's why i also don't know these things will sell how much.

These goods are designed by a group of seniors of Dasein Academy of Art, while the exhibition going to held at Central Market will be their graduate exhibition. What you wait for?! If you want to know more information about this exphibition, visit their website
< www.shanfun.blogspot.com >!

.积极点加点！

2009-02-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

最近好像爱上华语似的，偏爱用华语来表达我的心情。

白痴对吗？那是我的母语，很正常啊。

我发觉最近的我有所改变了。

对待功课的心态又回到了刚开始时，比较积极了。

不积极怎么行啊，做了选择就得走下去！

别人都在进步，唯有我在做缩头乌龟。

那可不行了啊，我是好胜的人，别人赢我可是不行的！

坦白说，会不爽别人做得好，回头看自己，做了些什么吗？

没什么……

就是说嘛，没什么怎么和别人比啊？！

就是这个原因，我找回了当初的热诚。

我也要进步，我也要成名！

虽然还没什么成就，未来必定有！

现在真为自己铺路。

不知是人脉，知识方面也得加！加！加！

我不能再给自己看低！

不能再给亲戚们当笑话来看！

很努力，很很很努力！

也要谢谢我可爱的hwi yee和Rachel，

是你们把我点醒的……

所以说嘛，良性的竞争会带来吓人的猛进。

小心哦~你们都是我的对手！嘻嘻~

放松。借口。清新

2009-02-14T10:31:00.000+08:00

i think in the following topic, i think i will compose in mandarin. currently is in that mood. haha...

和他谈天，诉苦

没有拘束

好舒服

有时真的觉得

当朋友比当情侣好

昨天晚上

谈了好多

也了解什么事观念

观念一旦错误

就会有很多借口

很多让我逃避的后门

想起老师问我的一句话

“你在逃避什么？”

我想不到理由

只好面对

常埋怨别人抄袭

朋友反问一句

把我打醒

别人有时间

别人有用心去抄

我呢？

对

我呢？

明明知道

明明清楚自己的底牌

干嘛那么吝啬

不让别人看看？

是稳赢的啊

找到了方向

就马上启程

还婆婆妈妈的

准没好事

踏出第一步

那么多人支持我

那么多人看好我

所以不能再躲

不能再让他们失望

做回朋友.很难吗？

2009-02-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

those who don't know chinese, sorry, this time got to write in chinese to express my feelings...

和好，做回朋友真的有那么难吗？

为什么还在逃避？

为什么还在抗拒？

你说我这样说不对，

对不起，我道歉……

我犯的错，我知道，我也内疚……

但是，

就做回朋友，

有那么难吗？

从好友那里获知你的消息，

高兴得不得了，

也心疼得不得了。

不是心疼你不理我了，是心疼你醉得如此厉害，

问自己，怎么当时没能在你身边……

听见他们拿我来威胁你，我不开心，

但我觉得是我应得的。

听见你有倾慕的对象，

好想告诉那女的，你是多麽的好，

不要像我这样白痴，

放弃了你……

这几天都看着电话，

想说要不要给你发封简讯，

朋友说的一句，“我支持你”

我发了……

望着手机，

等你的回复……

怎知你还是没回我。

没关系，只想说，

对不起，我的存在成为了你的噩梦。

valentine

2009-02-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

every of the things remind me about the past. not to pull myself back, but to remind myself. anyway, i look back, i just been once that i'm in a relationship during valentine, but not a happy one, so just forget about that.

i will always ask myself, when will be my turn? receiving all those present, someone special to over with?

i know i don't need to worry all about that, it will come by time. i did receive flowers before, but i did not appriciate it...

now it gone, i just regret so much that i didn't keep it. how many times i dream that he was back, but all that's just dream...

any u-turn?

he said will not. i said i know.

but in my heart, i told myself, there may still have chance. somebody ask me, what for?

making myself suffer.

i just enjoy that.

u can say that its crazy.

i just don't know how to explain about that feeling.

i will take that as a punishment from the god...

i will just take that as a way to cover my guiltiness...

awaken.i'm back.

2009-02-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

yes, i'm back, i'm back with passion, i'm back with lots of scar.

as this year, a wonderful starting point for me. lots of happy things happened. just a message from JP, it represent all the message i lost. its worth that. i really very happy and even can't believe my eyes that's from him. nevermind, i'm happy with that, although its a belated birthday wishes, at least he remember... just like what fish leong said in her blog, no matter how many present i get, if it's not from the specific person, it's nothing... now i understand... ya, i appriciate that very much. a special wishes for a special person. ^^

went to chaozhou, china during chinese new year. a great experience. we have been to our grandpa's and grandma's village there. experience the village life and also the city life. my birthday over there too.

tada~ the most natural smile from me. just like what my mum say, a special birthday for a special me. i just feel regret that my birthday not with JP and friends... the only thing i regret...

a sot sot bestie in college, rachel. when both of us sit together, topics won't stop flowing out from our mouth. haha! i like that! muaxx~ rachel! happy birthday! thank you to hwi yee as well, for the yummy cheese cake, the chocolate drink and also the beatiful scene. thank you very much! ><

a huge rock with words...

2009-01-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

my heart is like this picture... as if can touch, but it's actually very far, very far... yes, now, i'm going nearer to my heart. i saw a rock, a huge rock with words on it, blocking the way to "love"... i wonder, "who leave this here? what's the words on it?" i knew it very clearly, it's me... i've closed the posibilities, the words are "i still can't let go him"... ya, a lot of excuses, a lot of back doors. everytime i move that rock, i will just move a bit, so it just like never moved... who can help me? nobody except myself... let go... although it will hurt and tough... just let go...

Happy new year!!

2009-01-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

yeah~!! this is the BBQ party i organise~!! thank you for all of your support to make this a success! i enjoyed a lot! a new relationship had build up between us as well, cool~! haha... the most important is everybody enjoy themselves! oh~ a bit blur blur now as those in front of the pic almost didn't sleep the whole night, haha! that's the spirit of the youngster! haha... it's a very special new year eve for me! get over with a gang of energetic families! haha... although at first there's like a gap between the guest, but later on they can mix together so well~ if it's longer, i think we will play like crazy people! haha... anyway, wish all of my friends and family, happy new year!!! just enjoy and appreciate this brand new year!

although there's happiness, sad and down feeling still comes to me. SL went clubbing with Jp that gang and helped me to transfer some message to him... and... just as what i knew with his response... but, there's still expectation from me that won't have any possibility to happen. sadness concurred my mind, my heart... i know i should let it go, shift, keep on shift, but it's really hard. just can't help myself... SL told me he was very drunk last night, and yet simply hug girls in the club... although SL also told me that he falls from the stairs, need many people to bring him to the car... but, what's in my mind, what i processed is just, "he simply hug girls"... just... really can't help myself... haiz...

cutie and yummy~

2008-12-27T00:54:00.001+08:00

all this little clip will bring you happiness and also can as an imagination when you are hungry. haha! its very cheap~ just rm1.00 for each. there is only 48 of them with 8 different emotions!

haha.. even boys will like this, just that it is too cute~

what are you thinking? just buy! it can be use as paper clip, hair clip, t-shirt clip... make yourself creative! ^^

Anyone interested with this?

2008-12-22T12:34:00.001+08:00

This is the shirt that i'm selling. For your information, there's 5 colours with simple pattern in front of the t-shirt. It is a baby-tee size, which is M size and L size. At first i targeted female, so there is no man's size, but if want, can order here. Have a look with the other four colours which is pink, blue, cream and lime green.

The price of this t-shirt is RM25/pcs. The material of the t-shirt is cotton. So if you want, please don't feel hesitate to send me a mail with your name, contact number, the amount you want and also the size.

wow! i'm playing futsal~!

2008-12-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

just through a simple game, a siple plan.. i've learn a lot of things. other than that, i feel so happy that can play with adrian in the game. i've thought for a long time, at last, i got the chance. chance won't just drop by to me, i must pick it up 1st. haha... will post some photos later when i got from matt. haha... happy~

a letter to my parents..

2008-12-13T23:50:00.001+08:00

not a letter, but is two... it's my words from my heart. inside, other then to tell them what i experience from them , and also a very very big request... a request to them so i can move out to stay at genting kelang with my classmate, and also my best buddy in this year, hwi yee. it's not a 3 minit fever, but it's something i want for a long time but don't dare to request from them.

anyway, i afraid of what they will say, so i decide to wrote them these letters. for your information, my parents never alloow me to evernight at friend's house, even my neighbour that had move to another place. my dad will be the first one who reject that. he willing to pick me up there ruther than letting me to overnight there. but then, actually this year he had make a step back for me, and my very first time to overnight at hwi yee's house. i feel damn happy with that.

now, i make myself clear of what i want and also what i should do. its a very tough challenge to me, but i'm a risking person, no problem for that. haha...

i know why they don't let me to overnight at friend's house, it's not putting me to have that habbit and also my safetiness. my mum will always show me the news in the news paper, about those crime that getting worse now. i will take it as an nformation, just o aware of that.

oh~ i really hope both of them will agree with my "proposal". haha! just that, feel release when i finish the letters. now just thinking where to put, so that they will see and open to read. they are at genting now, so it's my chance to stick the letters on their room's door, sure will discover that, so obvious. haha! wish me good luck~ ^^

my 1st job...

2008-12-08T14:21:00.001+08:00

yea, this is the logo i design! i'm really proud to say so. although its kind of tired, exhausting, bt, this is the result i create. thank you alvin and wendy to give me such chance...

thia is the restaurant. haven't start, so i just take time to take some pictuers. it's a very sharp and out standing colour. i'm really proud of that. this is also their goals. a celebration for them!! wow!! done all this in just less then 2 months!! thats LP, make thgs happen in shorter time. haha! anyway, promote a bit of this chinese food restaurant. the environment there is warm, comfort and yet high class. the food are with reasonable payment, big bowls of mee, delicious cuisine that we may not eat outside. the chef have 10 years experience at little penang, so just try to have gathering here, u will enjoy it very much. (^_^)

wow~ Long time NO see~

2008-12-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

haha. anyway, i really didn't update my blog for a very very long time. yes, i'm back! haha... oh god, i've experience alot of things within this two+ months. Other than my own relationship problem, i've also experience the love from a bunch of people that i just know them for 3 months! those days, i will always blame, they don't want to contact me, they don't like me, they, they and they... always pointing out. now i get that, i'm the source to make things happen. instead of waiting them to contact me, i am the one who contact them, i am the one who creat fun, i am the one who inspire people! oh... although sometimes will feel blur and lost, but i shift very fast. sometimes, analysing is a good method to settle problems. make my stand clear, my solid believes of making things happen must start from me. just like what matt called me during the rope course, "miss URGENTCY". haha...

i still got alot of things would like to share. i'm a human, human will tired, so... good night. have a sweet dream...

a WOW day!!!

2008-11-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

Today, 15 November 2008 is the most memorable day for me as this is the firs time i reach out to the world and also the only time that such event is held. Wow~! The kids are totaly cute and it's me!!! They are like when i'm also a kid. They will always full of energy and they never suspect you for anything. In just a day, we can be so close, and yet some of them cry when the event end and they have to leave. Ooo~ So touching~ Exspecialy those from Penang, i didn't even thought that I will cry when they are leaving... As in my mind, the only thing that I was thinking was I would never see them again... When I saw them that they were not willing to go so fast, I was like... Oh~! They are just like my kids, my children...

This is Bos, one of my "children". In the drawing section, she had draw the LPs in the group. Whe i saw the picture, i was like, it's just like what i did last time! He was so enjoy and yet help me a lot to take care of the youngs. He is so smart! It is just a waste that he didn't get a perfect family like mine... When he was getting down out of the bus back to their home, he was like he will miss me so much... Although he didn't say out, but for sure i can feel that strongly... That's the connection to another human being...

Love is not meant in the heart to stay... Love is only love when you give it away... I like this phrase very much!!! LP121 are you ready? LP121 GO! LP121 GO! LP121 GO! GO! GO!

aiyo... desperation... confuse!!!

2008-10-25T00:58:00.000+08:00

Oh God!!! Honestly, what i feel now is desperation to have someone that can by my side, what i mean is a boyfriend. is it right or wrong? What my believe is, it's a very wrong thing to have those desperation! It's like a very evil thought that i have. Another conversation in my mind is to tell myself to delete the thought immediately. ARRR~! It's like, when i feel "he" is the right person, "he'll" just leave me, as those i didn't feel "he" is the right one will just come... Is this the fact? Of course i know, there will be a right time to get the right person, but then i just can't wait it patiently! everytime i feel lonely, not because i don't have friends, but it's because i don't have a person that can by my side long lasting... wow! today i'm so emotional! DELETE! DELETE! DELETE~!!!!

I'm purple?

2008-10-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

This is a picture I took nearby my house. I was arranging the photos and yet, I like this picture very much. I feel that it's like myself... For me, purple is a mysterious colour just like what I have with my image. As my close friends will know, I like green, not because of the colour, but the meaning really suites me. Yes, green means envy, I do always envy, I'll always ask and think... Why I will be like this? Is it wrong to envy on somebody? Then, every time I have this kind of feelings, I will just stop it, as my belief, this is wrong, I can't be like this, no body will like me if I show up. But then, now I know, it's okay to envy, it's normal. People won't change, I won't change as well. ^^

my cutie students~

2008-10-02T00:14:00.001+08:00

she's one of my favourite student, yee jun. a cute girl with bright eyes but petite. she's always understand why i thought them that way. everytime i saw here drawing, i will feel very successful. they had their result after i thought them for about 9 month. Now i had to resind. i was thinking of this long time ago, but everytime i saw them, i will just delete the idea from my mind. after the advance, i know that, i can't just think of others, i should responsible to myself too. i've been thinking too much for others... i should a chance for my ownself. when i told them i'm not going to teach them any more, they'll like asking questions, i'll feel the pain and want to pull back again, but i know, i can't pull back any more, for my future, for my responsibility and for my own idea. but i also feel happy when they ask me to stay, that's the prove that they received my love, they will remember me. happy~ haha!

yee jun~ cute right? if i'm not mistaken, she's just standard 1 or 2.

aiyo~ this two always make me headache. stuborn and like to give excuse... but then they are cute sometimes. haha! qi yang and zi xuan, they are siblings, zi xuan did her responsible very much as an elder sister. good~

yew de, sharro and brian. yew de is my "boss" son, an active boy. sharro, a hyperactive girl that always has the energy. one of my favourite student too~! brian is her youger brother, i didn't teach him much, but then as i know, he is a troublesome student too. haha...

i'll miss them so much~ aikz...

wow~my 1st time at pub!!

2008-09-28T20:53:00.001+08:00

This is the front door of the pub. Cool right?

Haha! It's actually an interview with the commitee of the pub name "baze". It's just next to renencence hotel (I don't know the spelling). A joyful and relax interview. They are pretty and yet full of passion! Haha!

The four of us who is under age but still can in the V.I.P room! Haha!! I want to buy clothes!! I want look lady!! They are so great in wearing! haha!! Got a bit sot sot adi, drink a bit of wine just now. Haha!!

a dream of him...

2008-09-27T11:11:00.000+08:00

I think it's because I miss him too much. I dream of him... It's a dream that I had to attend a dinner, and I've invited him. His attend make me surprise. I was damn happy and ecxited! When I saw him, I was like hug him tight and be with him where ever he go. In a sudden, my brother wake me up! Oh my god! I don't care about him and continue with my dream. But this time, he was scolding me, scold me for like tp judge other people without looking at myself. I can feel the sad very clear, it was so real... When I awake, I can't stop myself, I just burst into cry and I was wishing that was real. I really miss him a lot. I rather he scold me right infront of me than just running away from me, don't pick up my phone, don't reply my message. It's more hurt than scolding me... I really miss him...

a gift from my buddy!

2008-09-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

This is a gift from my buddy, Quek~! It's a little jar with little jelly and a big bean. What special about it is, there are a love symbol and words on it. The words are 'only you'! I received this on this wednesday, which is our guest event. I'm really happy that somebody will give me present without any special event, it's just a gift that she think she want to give me~! So~ Happy~! Haha... Thank you Quek! I'll grow this to a big plant!

Just graduated from AW advance course!!

2008-09-26T13:37:00.000+08:00

It's been how many days i didn't up date my blog... hm... I don't know. Haha!! Anyway, it's kind a busy after the advance course, a lot things are waiting to be done during this holiday. Wow! a full filled holiday, everyday busying. Anyway, I like this kind of life! Haha!! Those people in the picture are my buddies that went through the advance course journey with me. It's kind a fun, exciting and full of memory. Believe me, they are great and we become best friend in just 5 days! What i experience through the course is living as a human being in this world. Everything is done 100% and with a great urgency! Haha... I've been running away from a lot of things that i don't feel it's comfortable, because of that, i lost a lot of chances. Honestly, I was running away to become an adult too, as te adult life seem so hard and tough. Now, I'm no longer acting cute or blur, i'm an adult now that dare to express what I know and what i think about. It's not a shame, it's just the way to let other people get connected with me. I'm going to Leadership program next month, for me, it's full of mysterious and I'm really excited about it. Don't think too much, just go for anything with your heart, ask your heart, what you want and just go for it! Go! Go! Go!

a moody day...

2008-09-10T18:50:00.001+08:00

my heart just like the weather today. sometimes cloudy and sometimes shine. i really miss him very much adn yet i don't know what to do. every time i feel like want to call him, i'll think twice. i'll stop my mind and tell myself," u got to wait, be patient..." ya... i have to wait, i can't disturb him. just wait... Shirley did gave me some hint so that i'll give up. but i told her i won't for sure. that's what i want? to be with him and love him forever? i'm asking myself again, what do you want? think deeply... i need him to give me a chance, just a chance...

a necklace he gave me last year as my birthday present. wearing it 24 hours except bathing. actually the clover dropped, and i just framed it back. but after taking this picture, then only i realise i've make it the wrong position and yet its up-side-down now. haha!!

this is a picture took in 2007, Shirley's birthday. we celebrate for her. what a sweet memory. haha! i still remember i bake a something with bread for her. haha! and it's very... yulkz!! you know what? JP ate almost everything. oh gotch!!

this is a Christmas's present from him in 2007. although the crystal looks a bit fake, but i like it. i wonder how much he had spend on me... so, my waiting is just a very minor case. i'll wait...

my granpa's don't know what call ceremony~

2008-09-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

my cutie cousin sister, hui qing. she's like a princess. so cute~ everytime i saw her also can't control myself to hug her. haha!

look at her eyes! just like had put on eyeliner. haha!!

mee kee and i. they got to wear dark blue shirt, and i don't need to. haha... lucky me. why? because i'm not the 'inner grandchildren' of my grandpa. haha... i also don't know how to explain. i wear those before, it's really very, very, very uncomfartable.

mika, qian and mee kee. qian was a big brother among us during the ceremony. actualy he is not, but then the eldest one is at england, so he replaced it. a funny guy who can put his foot above his head whenever sitting or standing. that made mee kee and i kept laughing and screaming. argh... tired...

mei xin and mei mei. both are cute and yet beautiful. mei xin is mee kee's younger sister, with a good frame. she'll be a pretty girl in the future. mei mei, my grandpa's gred-granddaughter. very adorable and has a cute voice just like dolls~ haha!

mei mei~!! she's so~ cute~

actualy i feel that this ceremony is for us to gather together, some sort of gathering. the family on my mom's side is very big. we'll meet each other once a year only during the chinese ney year. so, i appriciate this very much and yet i willing to get MC for my class today. i fell that this worth. haha.. anyway, i really feel don't want to leave when it end. i'll miss them very much. aikz...

my new hair style~

2008-09-04T17:59:00.000+08:00

haha... cut it really short... a lot of friends keep asking me if i get any pressure. i just laugh and asked them, "not nice?" those who very close to me will know the reason. are you very curious to know? haha... actualy the purpose is to show jp that this time i'm serious, hope he'll give me a chance. maybe you'll think, it doesn't show anything. for me, it is the most changes i made. as most of my friends know, my hair grow really, really slow, and its a tough mission to keep my hair long like that. whatever others will think, that's my determination!

this is a clearer picture of me. snap this with my laptop.

my family members~

2008-09-01T12:38:00.000+08:00

the first, of course is my mom. she's a superwoman that have a lot of life experience. she'll always share with me, and i'll share with her too. she's a great mom that thought me a lot of things.

the other one is my 1st younger brother, admas. look! so cute~ he is a funny guy that is a girls magnet too. a lot of my friends say that he is cute with his chubby face and he has humour. he's like my friend, but if we argue, there be earthquake... haha... a lot of my friends ask why am i so friend with him, just because he's just one year younger than me. i'll always ask for his suggestion or comment whenever i do my assignment.

this is my 2nd younger brother, alcent, a humorous person too. but he always acting cute and he doesn't like to face the camera. a crazy guy that is quite good in maths or counting but then he is too proud and make careless mistake all the time. he is sri kdu's basketball representitive too. he is the only one who have a pair of healthy eyes too. honestly, i think he is a handsome guy that can attract the girls too. haha... my friends said that he's like a korean. i think in this picture you can't make the decisions. wait till i got the chance to take his picture 1st. haha...

aha~! this is the youngest one in my family. a little boy that is hyperactive. cute and likes to imagine all the time. i think he is quite talented in acting. he is in sjk(c)kepong 2's basketball school team. kinda good in running too. what makes me proud of him is, his bm is the best in our family. haha!!

my intention to chase him back!!

2008-08-31T20:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday, when i'm on the way back to home, something reminds me about our national day thats going to be today. that link me to raymond's birthday. then i wonder, there's another person's birthday... oh no! jp's birthday! how dare to forget about his birthday.

to let those don't know much about me, he was my boyfriend last year. a guy that chase and waited me for more than 1 and a half year untill i knoded my head. i did something really wrong to him, and i regret for what i've done to him. we broke up twice and i'm the one who dump him twice! how stupid am i to let go a guy that's almost perfect as a boyfriend!

back to what happened yesterday. when i back to home, his buddies on the line, and i just ask them wether there's a celebration for him. okay, for sure, there was. i told myself, i'll go. i wanted his friends to keep it as a secret, i'll give him a surprise. this reminds me, i've done the same thing last year and i was his girlfriend. *hit myself* before that, i went to jusco, the main intention was not to buy a present for him, is to find the shoe i want before the mega sales end.

when i settled my stuff, i ask my brothers for suggestion of his present. one told me to give him something that can eat, my youngest brother told me to give him a girlfriend! i stunned for a few minutes... i ask my dad for suggestion (the 1st time i'll ask him for suggestions), he gave me the same answer as my 2nd brother-chocolate. i just rush down to the ground floor and look foward for chocolates. then i found 1 that the pakaging is quite unique, i just took that and straight away went toward the counter. i scanned the surrounding and i found something that that may suite him as a basketballer-addidas shower gel. but then the price was over my badget, then i just look around again (my brother was lining up for me). suddenly i remeber that he drives, i decide to buy a car air refresher. my mom suggested me to bring both of the item to the counter, the chocolate may more expensive than the air fresher. at last, i chose the air refresher as the chocolate is RM20++. rushing here and there in the complex to wrap the present and the birthday card.

finally, i reach at the restaurant, i don't dare to step in, and my contact lens was dry at that time, i can't see properly. luckily his friend came out and gave me a call. then i just went in and jp was shock on his face. they arrage me to sit beside him, i also don't know why they do so. as what normal people will do, asking about how's the life goes, bla, bla, bla~ then straight away skip to the part they want him to make a wish, playing fun with the picture we took last year. i don't really feel good for what they were doing, i want to cry... i just stand up and staright away to the .wash room. i can feel the silent when i did that. i cried in the wash room and i really feel bad at the moment... luckily after i wipe my face then only a girl from the gang came in. when i back to the seat, jp asked wether i'm okay, of course i'll answer him i'm okay...

before the celebration end, i made my mind to say sorry to him for what ive done. his reply was, it had been such long, nevermind... aikz... when the celebration end, he raise his hand and shoke hand with me to say thank you. he accompanied me to my car with the reason he want to have a look at my car, how injured it was after the accident. before i get into my car, i said something i didn't even thought that i'll spoke out. i said i did thought of can us be together again. i think he was stunned at the moment, and he gave me a sign *contact with phone*, then he just went off. the whole way back, i've make sure that my heart is still with him. so, my intention is to chase him back now. i'll doubled up how he treat me last time, more good! i'm sure that i won't regret for that for this time. not fate control me, but i'm the one who over-control the 'fate!! i'll grab the chance myself! i'll tell him how much i love him by action! go go go!!!

wow~ i'm in heaven~ haha!!

2008-08-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

i'm doing something very dangerous to snao these picture. guess what? i snap those picture when i'm driving on the 3rd lane on the highway. haha!! but then i couldn't hold it, it''s too beautiful~ i enjoy the journey back to home everyday, i can see such beautiful scene everyday!! haha...
its the same thing when i look at the sky with my sunglasses on. nice right? haha...

hey! my recent done work~

2008-08-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

this is a postcard done for my digital art's assignment. my theme is the smiles of the children. isn't that sweet and cute? i like this piece of work i've done. simple, not too messy and the most important is, the colour that attract other people to have a look. photoshop is useful but for me as a idiot in computer, its a hard work for me. haha... this is the 1st piece i done in photoshop. i still prefer free hand. >< haha!

the other one is the back of the postcard. but then the colour is a bit out of the original. i've satisfied before i saw other's work. some of my classmate done really good, really nice! good skills that i got to pick up using more time than they are. i believe i can handle that! ^o^

show u guys too the postcards done by my two bestie. the japan stle is done by rachel, she's quite familiar with the photoshop, just because she'll try to discover more of the photoshop's function when she's free.i like tat very much. this is the back of the postcard. she always has an extra ordinary idea, anyway, i like her style.
this is done by hwi yee, her style is very free. she likes art neuvau's style really much and yet a lot of her art work will appear the elements. she can done her work very fast and yet you will worried for her that if she gt any mistake in it. i'll always give her advice to cure her "too raph" sickness, haha! her postcard is simple, but the meaning of giving love is there. good job!

the next one is actualy a duplication of a newspaper. it's one of my typography assignment. i've forgotten i used how long to do this, but then i know is quite long, just because i did all that manually. even the word 'the new york times' i search online for the most similar one. all the picture i search online too, down there the picture of a candle and the other one i crop the unwanted space in photoshop for a perfect size. all my hrd work gain a 100% duplication and the most proud thing is, ms shan li, our typography lecturer praise me infront of the whole class! oh ya, one more thing, she'll treat me for that! haha... happy~ that the result of my hard work! it's not a waste for spending such long time to done that. haha! the result is what you gain from the work u had done. looks like a real newspaper? ehee.. i'll keep it up!! my intention is to be the top student with GPA 3.8!! go go go!!! ^o^

arrr... just get into an accident...

2008-08-11T14:25:00.000+08:00

just now about 11.45am, i get into an accident around a traffic light at wangsa melawati. my heart still shivering. luckily i'm not injured, fine, don't worry about that. my car was knocked by a big lorry which carries sand. my car was seriously injured and later i'm going to report at the kl police station. i was stunned when the lorry just crashed the right hand side of my car. i just stopped it by the road side. the 1st thing i did is to call my dad. but he didn't puck up the phone, so i called my mom. i was so nervous and yet my fingers was shivering while i dial the numbers.luckily there's a uncle who help me by my side. really lucky! haha..

but then the problem now is, i don't have car to drive to college. so , i've planned to overnight at my friend's house so that to cut down the lrt fee.

wa~ frightened me~!!!

2008-08-02T15:35:00.000+08:00

guess what's this? its blood!!!! big drops of blood! yesterday, i went for badminton training again. after some stamina training, we had some mini games within us. then i was called to have a game with wen hao and byran, double versus single. as the game start, i took a smash and got a score. then the game continue, and both of them trying to get my smashing again. and they manage to do it and the shuttle was in the court. after i pick the shuttle up, i saw wenhao was asking byran is he okay, and byran was rubbing his nose without his spectacles. i guess he was hit by wen hao accidentaly. byran's left cheek was red, and i feel that its something wrong. i walk near them and byran's nose was bleeding. i straight away called to hold on and bring him to our coach. his blood didn't stop and makes everybody start to worry, asspecialy our coach. he settle us down and fetch byran to the clinic. luckily he got nothing serious with the injured and his nose stopped bleeding. wow... what a good experience for me. to remind those who read my blog here, don't ever let your face facing up when your nose bleed, let it flow and blow it out, keep your breath in sequence too. if your face facing up, the blood will possible flow backwards and that's really dangerous. anyway, really got to becareful.

a summary of 4days

2008-07-28T19:18:00.000+08:00

ha ha, didn't manage to up-date my blog for 3 days.

on last Friday, i got a class with the subject named, "culture studies". in this class, we just need to watch a movie and give a report about my feeling, that's all, a relaxing subject. before the movie started to play, my lecturer, mark, want to test on the speaker, he used a vcd that contain some hits songs' MTV. when the song by jay chow, 'the secret', the whole class sings together, as if we were in the ktv. haha! i like the feel~ ^^ okay, talk about the movie we watched that day, its title is 'American history X', before the movie started, mark did mention its a 18XS movie, but i didn't aspect that its almost like an adult movie. luckily the scene that makes me embarrassed not too much in the movie. =.=the starting of the movie straight away gave me a big shocked already...

how about Saturday? oh~ nothing special happened. ha ha! as usual, back from college then take some rest, do some research for the assignments then teach drawing again. oh ya ya ya!!! remember about the class on Saturday that i want to describe. pengajian malaysia, guess what's that subject for. its a subject that teach us how to critic the government and clear about our right. ha ha! i like those subject really much, can show my ability to debate. ha ha! really enjoy about that!

Sunday!!! a great day to meet up my dear friends from asia works again!!!

its some of theirs graduation for the advance course. why I'm there? of course to support them and celebrate with them! after the graduation ceremony, Edmond, ash, kt teoh and i went to strawberry field to have dinner. something really funny to me, but very sorry for Edmond. his car gt in an accident on Saturday, and yet, yesterday, his car's tayar 'puncit'!! ha ha... so three of the men busy to change the tayar, while me, taking photo and watching the people that pass by--actually i was day dreaming. =p after the dinner, we went to tree house again, the place that we celebrate our basic graduate memorial place. ha ha! oh ya, before this i forgot to mention about when i meet Erin, what my reaction. i really didn't feel like this before, when i saw her, of course, both of us hug together and i cried! i cried because I've been missing her so much! wow! i didn't do this to any of my friends before. this is the changes that i reserve after the basic training. ha ha. happy about it. a happy but tired day end up with big smile on my face.

how bout today? at first in the morning worrying will Ena scold me for not completing the mood board and the mind map. but then when the class start, i totally get myself into the world of collage. really fun to do collages, but i still can't really differentiate the things that is suitable for the art movement i chose- pop art. i committed to try my best to done all the work that had given! i can do it!!!!

this is done by Ena, she really is my idol!!! love her so much!

bzing 4 these few weeks~

2008-07-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

wow! i really enjoy my life now. no blaming, no finding excuse...

its been two weeks i didn't up date my blog. haha! so now, i committed to share my life here everyday!!! haha! sounds simple? no, its a new challenge for me as a person who has many things to complete in a day. haha! craps again~

anyway, i'm having a new gang of friends in college. i like chatting and fooling around with them! a crazy bunch of girls who did not care about self impression and do whatever that other people will look at us ,and wondering, are we insane? no, we are authentic enough! :P let me show you some pictures we took in the college.

guess what we trying to express? haha... that's rachel~

haha... she's pui kuen. same age as me. she have good sense of design and every time done the work with almost perfect. especially today's presentation, she done it really well. why? because i understand very clear about the topic after her explanation. other than that, she's good in dressing up. (got to get some idea from her, haha!) the most important is, she's very funny!!! always makes us laugh like crazy. haha...

i actually forgotten when i took this picture for them, are they acting or they really laughing at the video they watching. just two words to describe them, acting queen!!! haha! the girl beside rachel is hwi yee, i did mention about her before in the previous post. she's raring a couple of hamsters, and they had give birth to 5 little ones. she likes to share their photo and videos of the hamster's daily life with us. as they are really cute and makes me want to scream every time. haha!!!

my badminton training!!

2008-07-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

it had been some time i stopped my badminton training, and now i continue again! i enjoy really much during the training. other than that, i'm very lucky too, to have a coach that love me so much. he's the best coach~!!! haha!! anyway, i looks a bit over when i interact with the kids, i'm like too friendly and yet scared them. haha! i participate 100% in the training, now i'm feeling my muscles' pain. haha! thats the sign that i did't excercise for a long time already. a boy asked me, "are you going to attend this training every friday?". and guess what i answered him? i said, "ya, are you happy with it?" . he just smile in a shy way, haha! so cute~!!

that's my coach!! with handsome look and beautiful pair of legs~! haha.. tell you what, he got no hair on his leg~!!! i feel like want to exchange our legs. haha! he has a cute baby girl now after his marriage last year. feel glad to now that. and i'm the 1st who given the chance to have a look at the video of his baby girl!! i'm so lucky!! haha..

the kids. they are waititng for their turn and chatting around too. they are really cute. some of them, their face is really chubby and i feel like want to pinch their face~!! haha.. they are actually trying to avoid from getting capture by me. haha! i did it last time, but not now! i found out that i like facing the camera very much~! haha! one of my minor goal is to be a model. haha! don't know if i have the chance too try? ><

my best friends in college~!!!

2008-07-11T09:45:00.000+08:00

hwi yee~ my bestie~

she's the one who help me out of a terrible nightmare. she always give me advice and support when i'm in trouble. she's really beautiful, and yet sometime i can't control myself to look at her. (i'm normal k, don't misunderstood~!!! haha!!) other than a good friend to know, she's a good leader too. she'll organise all the work to do and the material that needed, so that not wasting any body's precious time. she's my idol for managing things. i'm learning~ haha! anyway, i appreciate her commitment to me. i'll commit to her more than she does!!!

asiaWorks training~!!

2008-07-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

i've attend a training at asiaworks. the handsome man beside me is our trainer, kenito, a japanese hawaiian.

its a great training on self awareness, organizational committment, leadership, teamwork and effectiveness.
i've change a lot on my attitude, my responsibility, openess and more.. i made my intention very very clear, i commited to achieve the goals i set for myself.

other than that, my relationship with my friends too. my intention is to contribute to them more then i do. haha!

wow~

2007-08-15T17:42:00.000+08:00

haha.. actualli dunno wat 2 say. juz creat a new blog 4 testing

~*mika's heart*~