我还活着。life with quality

无奈 怀疑 多疑 烦啊！

无法释怀那烦人的感觉

时而妒忌 时而爱慕 时而愤怒

总而言之

烦啊！

但 以另一方面想想

我有感觉

证明 我还活着 证明 我还正常

这就是人生 反复无常的人生

所以只好珍惜眼前的一切

过去的 是回忆

没能再挽回

没能再后悔

只因 不会有任何改变

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these days have a lot of things to consider. i know how to console others, but actually don't even have the gutts to face my own problem. read the diaries of mine, feel so stupid and childish. anyway, that's the way to show my growth, that's the way to gain experience. i don't know how to express my feelings well, and yet, sometimes do hurt others. i confess for that. anyway, i'c chaning, not in a big range, but a bit by a bit. slowly, i may turn into a buterfly, or even a bigger one-swan. anyway, i personally think that enjoy life with no doubt is bull shit, crap. i think enjoy life with quality will be more suitable.