wow~my 1st time at pub!!

This is the front door of the pub. Cool right?

Haha! It's actually an interview with the commitee of the pub name "baze". It's just next to renencence hotel (I don't know the spelling). A joyful and relax interview. They are pretty and yet full of passion! Haha!

The four of us who is under age but still can in the V.I.P room! Haha!! I want to buy clothes!! I want look lady!! They are so great in wearing! haha!! Got a bit sot sot adi, drink a bit of wine just now. Haha!!

a dream of him...

I think it's because I miss him too much. I dream of him... It's a dream that I had to attend a dinner, and I've invited him. His attend make me surprise. I was damn happy and ecxited! When I saw him, I was like hug him tight and be with him where ever he go. In a sudden, my brother wake me up! Oh my god! I don't care about him and continue with my dream. But this time, he was scolding me, scold me for like tp judge other people without looking at myself. I can feel the sad very clear, it was so real... When I awake, I can't stop myself, I just burst into cry and I was wishing that was real. I really miss him a lot. I rather he scold me right infront of me than just running away from me, don't pick up my phone, don't reply my message. It's more hurt than scolding me... I really miss him...

a gift from my buddy!

This is a gift from my buddy, Quek~! It's a little jar with little jelly and a big bean. What special about it is, there are a love symbol and words on it. The words are 'only you'! I received this on this wednesday, which is our guest event. I'm really happy that somebody will give me present without any special event, it's just a gift that she think she want to give me~! So~ Happy~! Haha... Thank you Quek! I'll grow this to a big plant!

Just graduated from AW advance course!!

It's been how many days i didn't up date my blog... hm... I don't know. Haha!! Anyway, it's kind a busy after the advance course, a lot things are waiting to be done during this holiday. Wow! a full filled holiday, everyday busying. Anyway, I like this kind of life! Haha!! Those people in the picture are my buddies that went through the advance course journey with me. It's kind a fun, exciting and full of memory. Believe me, they are great and we become best friend in just 5 days! What i experience through the course is living as a human being in this world. Everything is done 100% and with a great urgency! Haha... I've been running away from a lot of things that i don't feel it's comfortable, because of that, i lost a lot of chances. Honestly, I was running away to become an adult too, as te adult life seem so hard and tough. Now, I'm no longer acting cute or blur, i'm an adult now that dare to express what I know and what i think about. It's not a shame, it's just the way to let other people get connected with me. I'm going to Leadership program next month, for me, it's full of mysterious and I'm really excited about it. Don't think too much, just go for anything with your heart, ask your heart, what you want and just go for it! Go! Go! Go!

a moody day...

my heart just like the weather today. sometimes cloudy and sometimes shine. i really miss him very much adn yet i don't know what to do. every time i feel like want to call him, i'll think twice. i'll stop my mind and tell myself," u got to wait, be patient..." ya... i have to wait, i can't disturb him. just wait... Shirley did gave me some hint so that i'll give up. but i told her i won't for sure. that's what i want? to be with him and love him forever? i'm asking myself again, what do you want? think deeply... i need him to give me a chance, just a chance...

a necklace he gave me last year as my birthday present. wearing it 24 hours except bathing. actually the clover dropped, and i just framed it back. but after taking this picture, then only i realise i've make it the wrong position and yet its up-side-down now. haha!!

this is a picture took in 2007, Shirley's birthday. we celebrate for her. what a sweet memory. haha! i still remember i bake a something with bread for her. haha! and it's very... yulkz!! you know what? JP ate almost everything. oh gotch!!

this is a Christmas's present from him in 2007. although the crystal looks a bit fake, but i like it. i wonder how much he had spend on me... so, my waiting is just a very minor case. i'll wait...

my granpa's don't know what call ceremony~

my cutie cousin sister, hui qing. she's like a princess. so cute~ everytime i saw her also can't control myself to hug her. haha!

look at her eyes! just like had put on eyeliner. haha!!

mee kee and i. they got to wear dark blue shirt, and i don't need to. haha... lucky me. why? because i'm not the 'inner grandchildren' of my grandpa. haha... i also don't know how to explain. i wear those before, it's really very, very, very uncomfartable.

mika, qian and mee kee. qian was a big brother among us during the ceremony. actualy he is not, but then the eldest one is at england, so he replaced it. a funny guy who can put his foot above his head whenever sitting or standing. that made mee kee and i kept laughing and screaming. argh... tired...

mei xin and mei mei. both are cute and yet beautiful. mei xin is mee kee's younger sister, with a good frame. she'll be a pretty girl in the future. mei mei, my grandpa's gred-granddaughter. very adorable and has a cute voice just like dolls~ haha!

mei mei~!! she's so~ cute~

actualy i feel that this ceremony is for us to gather together, some sort of gathering. the family on my mom's side is very big. we'll meet each other once a year only during the chinese ney year. so, i appriciate this very much and yet i willing to get MC for my class today. i fell that this worth. haha.. anyway, i really feel don't want to leave when it end. i'll miss them very much. aikz...

my new hair style~

haha... cut it really short... a lot of friends keep asking me if i get any pressure. i just laugh and asked them, "not nice?" those who very close to me will know the reason. are you very curious to know? haha... actualy the purpose is to show jp that this time i'm serious, hope he'll give me a chance. maybe you'll think, it doesn't show anything. for me, it is the most changes i made. as most of my friends know, my hair grow really, really slow, and its a tough mission to keep my hair long like that. whatever others will think, that's my determination!

this is a clearer picture of me. snap this with my laptop.

my family members~

the first, of course is my mom. she's a superwoman that have a lot of life experience. she'll always share with me, and i'll share with her too. she's a great mom that thought me a lot of things.

the other one is my 1st younger brother, admas. look! so cute~ he is a funny guy that is a girls magnet too. a lot of my friends say that he is cute with his chubby face and he has humour. he's like my friend, but if we argue, there be earthquake... haha... a lot of my friends ask why am i so friend with him, just because he's just one year younger than me. i'll always ask for his suggestion or comment whenever i do my assignment.

this is my 2nd younger brother, alcent, a humorous person too. but he always acting cute and he doesn't like to face the camera. a crazy guy that is quite good in maths or counting but then he is too proud and make careless mistake all the time. he is sri kdu's basketball representitive too. he is the only one who have a pair of healthy eyes too. honestly, i think he is a handsome guy that can attract the girls too. haha... my friends said that he's like a korean. i think in this picture you can't make the decisions. wait till i got the chance to take his picture 1st. haha...

aha~! this is the youngest one in my family. a little boy that is hyperactive. cute and likes to imagine all the time. i think he is quite talented in acting. he is in sjk(c)kepong 2's basketball school team. kinda good in running too. what makes me proud of him is, his bm is the best in our family. haha!!