cutie and yummy~

all this little clip will bring you happiness and also can as an imagination when you are hungry. haha! its very cheap~ just rm1.00 for each. there is only 48 of them with 8 different emotions!

haha.. even boys will like this, just that it is too cute~

what are you thinking? just buy! it can be use as paper clip, hair clip, t-shirt clip... make yourself creative! ^^

Anyone interested with this?

This is the shirt that i'm selling. For your information, there's 5 colours with simple pattern in front of the t-shirt. It is a baby-tee size, which is M size and L size. At first i targeted female, so there is no man's size, but if want, can order here. Have a look with the other four colours which is pink, blue, cream and lime green.

The price of this t-shirt is RM25/pcs. The material of the t-shirt is cotton. So if you want, please don't feel hesitate to send me a mail with your name, contact number, the amount you want and also the size.

wow! i'm playing futsal~!

just through a simple game, a siple plan.. i've learn a lot of things. other than that, i feel so happy that can play with adrian in the game. i've thought for a long time, at last, i got the chance. chance won't just drop by to me, i must pick it up 1st. haha... will post some photos later when i got from matt. haha... happy~

a letter to my parents..

not a letter, but is two... it's my words from my heart. inside, other then to tell them what i experience from them , and also a very very big request... a request to them so i can move out to stay at genting kelang with my classmate, and also my best buddy in this year, hwi yee. it's not a 3 minit fever, but it's something i want for a long time but don't dare to request from them.

anyway, i afraid of what they will say, so i decide to wrote them these letters. for your information, my parents never alloow me to evernight at friend's house, even my neighbour that had move to another place. my dad will be the first one who reject that. he willing to pick me up there ruther than letting me to overnight there. but then, actually this year he had make a step back for me, and my very first time to overnight at hwi yee's house. i feel damn happy with that.

now, i make myself clear of what i want and also what i should do. its a very tough challenge to me, but i'm a risking person, no problem for that. haha...

i know why they don't let me to overnight at friend's house, it's not putting me to have that habbit and also my safetiness. my mum will always show me the news in the news paper, about those crime that getting worse now. i will take it as an nformation, just o aware of that.

oh~ i really hope both of them will agree with my "proposal". haha! just that, feel release when i finish the letters. now just thinking where to put, so that they will see and open to read. they are at genting now, so it's my chance to stick the letters on their room's door, sure will discover that, so obvious. haha! wish me good luck~ ^^

my 1st job...

yea, this is the logo i design! i'm really proud to say so. although its kind of tired, exhausting, bt, this is the result i create. thank you alvin and wendy to give me such chance...

thia is the restaurant. haven't start, so i just take time to take some pictuers. it's a very sharp and out standing colour. i'm really proud of that. this is also their goals. a celebration for them!! wow!! done all this in just less then 2 months!! thats LP, make thgs happen in shorter time. haha! anyway, promote a bit of this chinese food restaurant. the environment there is warm, comfort and yet high class. the food are with reasonable payment, big bowls of mee, delicious cuisine that we may not eat outside. the chef have 10 years experience at little penang, so just try to have gathering here, u will enjoy it very much. (^_^)

wow~ Long time NO see~

haha. anyway, i really didn't update my blog for a very very long time. yes, i'm back! haha... oh god, i've experience alot of things within this two+ months. Other than my own relationship problem, i've also experience the love from a bunch of people that i just know them for 3 months! those days, i will always blame, they don't want to contact me, they don't like me, they, they and they... always pointing out. now i get that, i'm the source to make things happen. instead of waiting them to contact me, i am the one who contact them, i am the one who creat fun, i am the one who inspire people! oh... although sometimes will feel blur and lost, but i shift very fast. sometimes, analysing is a good method to settle problems. make my stand clear, my solid believes of making things happen must start from me. just like what matt called me during the rope course, "miss URGENTCY". haha...

i still got alot of things would like to share. i'm a human, human will tired, so... good night. have a sweet dream...

a WOW day!!!

Today, 15 November 2008 is the most memorable day for me as this is the firs time i reach out to the world and also the only time that such event is held. Wow~! The kids are totaly cute and it's me!!! They are like when i'm also a kid. They will always full of energy and they never suspect you for anything. In just a day, we can be so close, and yet some of them cry when the event end and they have to leave. Ooo~ So touching~ Exspecialy those from Penang, i didn't even thought that I will cry when they are leaving... As in my mind, the only thing that I was thinking was I would never see them again... When I saw them that they were not willing to go so fast, I was like... Oh~! They are just like my kids, my children...

This is Bos, one of my "children". In the drawing section, she had draw the LPs in the group. Whe i saw the picture, i was like, it's just like what i did last time! He was so enjoy and yet help me a lot to take care of the youngs. He is so smart! It is just a waste that he didn't get a perfect family like mine... When he was getting down out of the bus back to their home, he was like he will miss me so much... Although he didn't say out, but for sure i can feel that strongly... That's the connection to another human being...

Love is not meant in the heart to stay... Love is only love when you give it away... I like this phrase very much!!! LP121 are you ready? LP121 GO! LP121 GO! LP121 GO! GO! GO!

aiyo... desperation... confuse!!!

Oh God!!! Honestly, what i feel now is desperation to have someone that can by my side, what i mean is a boyfriend. is it right or wrong? What my believe is, it's a very wrong thing to have those desperation! It's like a very evil thought that i have. Another conversation in my mind is to tell myself to delete the thought immediately. ARRR~! It's like, when i feel "he" is the right person, "he'll" just leave me, as those i didn't feel "he" is the right one will just come... Is this the fact? Of course i know, there will be a right time to get the right person, but then i just can't wait it patiently! everytime i feel lonely, not because i don't have friends, but it's because i don't have a person that can by my side long lasting... wow! today i'm so emotional! DELETE! DELETE! DELETE~!!!!

I'm purple?

This is a picture I took nearby my house. I was arranging the photos and yet, I like this picture very much. I feel that it's like myself... For me, purple is a mysterious colour just like what I have with my image. As my close friends will know, I like green, not because of the colour, but the meaning really suites me. Yes, green means envy, I do always envy, I'll always ask and think... Why I will be like this? Is it wrong to envy on somebody? Then, every time I have this kind of feelings, I will just stop it, as my belief, this is wrong, I can't be like this, no body will like me if I show up. But then, now I know, it's okay to envy, it's normal. People won't change, I won't change as well. ^^

my cutie students~

she's one of my favourite student, yee jun. a cute girl with bright eyes but petite. she's always understand why i thought them that way. everytime i saw here drawing, i will feel very successful. they had their result after i thought them for about 9 month. Now i had to resind. i was thinking of this long time ago, but everytime i saw them, i will just delete the idea from my mind. after the advance, i know that, i can't just think of others, i should responsible to myself too. i've been thinking too much for others... i should a chance for my ownself. when i told them i'm not going to teach them any more, they'll like asking questions, i'll feel the pain and want to pull back again, but i know, i can't pull back any more, for my future, for my responsibility and for my own idea. but i also feel happy when they ask me to stay, that's the prove that they received my love, they will remember me. happy~ haha!

yee jun~ cute right? if i'm not mistaken, she's just standard 1 or 2.

aiyo~ this two always make me headache. stuborn and like to give excuse... but then they are cute sometimes. haha! qi yang and zi xuan, they are siblings, zi xuan did her responsible very much as an elder sister. good~

yew de, sharro and brian. yew de is my "boss" son, an active boy. sharro, a hyperactive girl that always has the energy. one of my favourite student too~! brian is her youger brother, i didn't teach him much, but then as i know, he is a troublesome student too. haha...

i'll miss them so much~ aikz...

wow~my 1st time at pub!!

This is the front door of the pub. Cool right?

Haha! It's actually an interview with the commitee of the pub name "baze". It's just next to renencence hotel (I don't know the spelling). A joyful and relax interview. They are pretty and yet full of passion! Haha!

The four of us who is under age but still can in the V.I.P room! Haha!! I want to buy clothes!! I want look lady!! They are so great in wearing! haha!! Got a bit sot sot adi, drink a bit of wine just now. Haha!!

a dream of him...

I think it's because I miss him too much. I dream of him... It's a dream that I had to attend a dinner, and I've invited him. His attend make me surprise. I was damn happy and ecxited! When I saw him, I was like hug him tight and be with him where ever he go. In a sudden, my brother wake me up! Oh my god! I don't care about him and continue with my dream. But this time, he was scolding me, scold me for like tp judge other people without looking at myself. I can feel the sad very clear, it was so real... When I awake, I can't stop myself, I just burst into cry and I was wishing that was real. I really miss him a lot. I rather he scold me right infront of me than just running away from me, don't pick up my phone, don't reply my message. It's more hurt than scolding me... I really miss him...

a gift from my buddy!

This is a gift from my buddy, Quek~! It's a little jar with little jelly and a big bean. What special about it is, there are a love symbol and words on it. The words are 'only you'! I received this on this wednesday, which is our guest event. I'm really happy that somebody will give me present without any special event, it's just a gift that she think she want to give me~! So~ Happy~! Haha... Thank you Quek! I'll grow this to a big plant!

Just graduated from AW advance course!!

It's been how many days i didn't up date my blog... hm... I don't know. Haha!! Anyway, it's kind a busy after the advance course, a lot things are waiting to be done during this holiday. Wow! a full filled holiday, everyday busying. Anyway, I like this kind of life! Haha!! Those people in the picture are my buddies that went through the advance course journey with me. It's kind a fun, exciting and full of memory. Believe me, they are great and we become best friend in just 5 days! What i experience through the course is living as a human being in this world. Everything is done 100% and with a great urgency! Haha... I've been running away from a lot of things that i don't feel it's comfortable, because of that, i lost a lot of chances. Honestly, I was running away to become an adult too, as te adult life seem so hard and tough. Now, I'm no longer acting cute or blur, i'm an adult now that dare to express what I know and what i think about. It's not a shame, it's just the way to let other people get connected with me. I'm going to Leadership program next month, for me, it's full of mysterious and I'm really excited about it. Don't think too much, just go for anything with your heart, ask your heart, what you want and just go for it! Go! Go! Go!

a moody day...

my heart just like the weather today. sometimes cloudy and sometimes shine. i really miss him very much adn yet i don't know what to do. every time i feel like want to call him, i'll think twice. i'll stop my mind and tell myself," u got to wait, be patient..." ya... i have to wait, i can't disturb him. just wait... Shirley did gave me some hint so that i'll give up. but i told her i won't for sure. that's what i want? to be with him and love him forever? i'm asking myself again, what do you want? think deeply... i need him to give me a chance, just a chance...

a necklace he gave me last year as my birthday present. wearing it 24 hours except bathing. actually the clover dropped, and i just framed it back. but after taking this picture, then only i realise i've make it the wrong position and yet its up-side-down now. haha!!

this is a picture took in 2007, Shirley's birthday. we celebrate for her. what a sweet memory. haha! i still remember i bake a something with bread for her. haha! and it's very... yulkz!! you know what? JP ate almost everything. oh gotch!!

this is a Christmas's present from him in 2007. although the crystal looks a bit fake, but i like it. i wonder how much he had spend on me... so, my waiting is just a very minor case. i'll wait...

my granpa's don't know what call ceremony~

my cutie cousin sister, hui qing. she's like a princess. so cute~ everytime i saw her also can't control myself to hug her. haha!

look at her eyes! just like had put on eyeliner. haha!!

mee kee and i. they got to wear dark blue shirt, and i don't need to. haha... lucky me. why? because i'm not the 'inner grandchildren' of my grandpa. haha... i also don't know how to explain. i wear those before, it's really very, very, very uncomfartable.

mika, qian and mee kee. qian was a big brother among us during the ceremony. actualy he is not, but then the eldest one is at england, so he replaced it. a funny guy who can put his foot above his head whenever sitting or standing. that made mee kee and i kept laughing and screaming. argh... tired...

mei xin and mei mei. both are cute and yet beautiful. mei xin is mee kee's younger sister, with a good frame. she'll be a pretty girl in the future. mei mei, my grandpa's gred-granddaughter. very adorable and has a cute voice just like dolls~ haha!

mei mei~!! she's so~ cute~

actualy i feel that this ceremony is for us to gather together, some sort of gathering. the family on my mom's side is very big. we'll meet each other once a year only during the chinese ney year. so, i appriciate this very much and yet i willing to get MC for my class today. i fell that this worth. haha.. anyway, i really feel don't want to leave when it end. i'll miss them very much. aikz...

my new hair style~

haha... cut it really short... a lot of friends keep asking me if i get any pressure. i just laugh and asked them, "not nice?" those who very close to me will know the reason. are you very curious to know? haha... actualy the purpose is to show jp that this time i'm serious, hope he'll give me a chance. maybe you'll think, it doesn't show anything. for me, it is the most changes i made. as most of my friends know, my hair grow really, really slow, and its a tough mission to keep my hair long like that. whatever others will think, that's my determination!

this is a clearer picture of me. snap this with my laptop.

my family members~

the first, of course is my mom. she's a superwoman that have a lot of life experience. she'll always share with me, and i'll share with her too. she's a great mom that thought me a lot of things.

the other one is my 1st younger brother, admas. look! so cute~ he is a funny guy that is a girls magnet too. a lot of my friends say that he is cute with his chubby face and he has humour. he's like my friend, but if we argue, there be earthquake... haha... a lot of my friends ask why am i so friend with him, just because he's just one year younger than me. i'll always ask for his suggestion or comment whenever i do my assignment.

this is my 2nd younger brother, alcent, a humorous person too. but he always acting cute and he doesn't like to face the camera. a crazy guy that is quite good in maths or counting but then he is too proud and make careless mistake all the time. he is sri kdu's basketball representitive too. he is the only one who have a pair of healthy eyes too. honestly, i think he is a handsome guy that can attract the girls too. haha... my friends said that he's like a korean. i think in this picture you can't make the decisions. wait till i got the chance to take his picture 1st. haha...

aha~! this is the youngest one in my family. a little boy that is hyperactive. cute and likes to imagine all the time. i think he is quite talented in acting. he is in sjk(c)kepong 2's basketball school team. kinda good in running too. what makes me proud of him is, his bm is the best in our family. haha!!

my intention to chase him back!!

yesterday, when i'm on the way back to home, something reminds me about our national day thats going to be today. that link me to raymond's birthday. then i wonder, there's another person's birthday... oh no! jp's birthday! how dare to forget about his birthday.

to let those don't know much about me, he was my boyfriend last year. a guy that chase and waited me for more than 1 and a half year untill i knoded my head. i did something really wrong to him, and i regret for what i've done to him. we broke up twice and i'm the one who dump him twice! how stupid am i to let go a guy that's almost perfect as a boyfriend!

back to what happened yesterday. when i back to home, his buddies on the line, and i just ask them wether there's a celebration for him. okay, for sure, there was. i told myself, i'll go. i wanted his friends to keep it as a secret, i'll give him a surprise. this reminds me, i've done the same thing last year and i was his girlfriend. *hit myself* before that, i went to jusco, the main intention was not to buy a present for him, is to find the shoe i want before the mega sales end.

when i settled my stuff, i ask my brothers for suggestion of his present. one told me to give him something that can eat, my youngest brother told me to give him a girlfriend! i stunned for a few minutes... i ask my dad for suggestion (the 1st time i'll ask him for suggestions), he gave me the same answer as my 2nd brother-chocolate. i just rush down to the ground floor and look foward for chocolates. then i found 1 that the pakaging is quite unique, i just took that and straight away went toward the counter. i scanned the surrounding and i found something that that may suite him as a basketballer-addidas shower gel. but then the price was over my badget, then i just look around again (my brother was lining up for me). suddenly i remeber that he drives, i decide to buy a car air refresher. my mom suggested me to bring both of the item to the counter, the chocolate may more expensive than the air fresher. at last, i chose the air refresher as the chocolate is RM20++. rushing here and there in the complex to wrap the present and the birthday card.

finally, i reach at the restaurant, i don't dare to step in, and my contact lens was dry at that time, i can't see properly. luckily his friend came out and gave me a call. then i just went in and jp was shock on his face. they arrage me to sit beside him, i also don't know why they do so. as what normal people will do, asking about how's the life goes, bla, bla, bla~ then straight away skip to the part they want him to make a wish, playing fun with the picture we took last year. i don't really feel good for what they were doing, i want to cry... i just stand up and staright away to the .wash room. i can feel the silent when i did that. i cried in the wash room and i really feel bad at the moment... luckily after i wipe my face then only a girl from the gang came in. when i back to the seat, jp asked wether i'm okay, of course i'll answer him i'm okay...

before the celebration end, i made my mind to say sorry to him for what ive done. his reply was, it had been such long, nevermind... aikz... when the celebration end, he raise his hand and shoke hand with me to say thank you. he accompanied me to my car with the reason he want to have a look at my car, how injured it was after the accident. before i get into my car, i said something i didn't even thought that i'll spoke out. i said i did thought of can us be together again. i think he was stunned at the moment, and he gave me a sign *contact with phone*, then he just went off. the whole way back, i've make sure that my heart is still with him. so, my intention is to chase him back now. i'll doubled up how he treat me last time, more good! i'm sure that i won't regret for that for this time. not fate control me, but i'm the one who over-control the 'fate!! i'll grab the chance myself! i'll tell him how much i love him by action! go go go!!!

wow~ i'm in heaven~ haha!!

i'm doing something very dangerous to snao these picture. guess what? i snap those picture when i'm driving on the 3rd lane on the highway. haha!! but then i couldn't hold it, it''s too beautiful~ i enjoy the journey back to home everyday, i can see such beautiful scene everyday!! haha...
its the same thing when i look at the sky with my sunglasses on. nice right? haha...

hey! my recent done work~

this is a postcard done for my digital art's assignment. my theme is the smiles of the children. isn't that sweet and cute? i like this piece of work i've done. simple, not too messy and the most important is, the colour that attract other people to have a look. photoshop is useful but for me as a idiot in computer, its a hard work for me. haha... this is the 1st piece i done in photoshop. i still prefer free hand. >< haha!

the other one is the back of the postcard. but then the colour is a bit out of the original. i've satisfied before i saw other's work. some of my classmate done really good, really nice! good skills that i got to pick up using more time than they are. i believe i can handle that! ^o^

show u guys too the postcards done by my two bestie. the japan stle is done by rachel, she's quite familiar with the photoshop, just because she'll try to discover more of the photoshop's function when she's free.i like tat very much. this is the back of the postcard. she always has an extra ordinary idea, anyway, i like her style.
this is done by hwi yee, her style is very free. she likes art neuvau's style really much and yet a lot of her art work will appear the elements. she can done her work very fast and yet you will worried for her that if she gt any mistake in it. i'll always give her advice to cure her "too raph" sickness, haha! her postcard is simple, but the meaning of giving love is there. good job!

the next one is actualy a duplication of a newspaper. it's one of my typography assignment. i've forgotten i used how long to do this, but then i know is quite long, just because i did all that manually. even the word 'the new york times' i search online for the most similar one. all the picture i search online too, down there the picture of a candle and the other one i crop the unwanted space in photoshop for a perfect size. all my hrd work gain a 100% duplication and the most proud thing is, ms shan li, our typography lecturer praise me infront of the whole class! oh ya, one more thing, she'll treat me for that! haha... happy~ that the result of my hard work! it's not a waste for spending such long time to done that. haha! the result is what you gain from the work u had done. looks like a real newspaper? ehee.. i'll keep it up!! my intention is to be the top student with GPA 3.8!! go go go!!! ^o^